My Anxiety.

Monday, 18 January 2016
Hello lovelies, today I will be talking about an aspect of my personality that I don't normally let creep into my blogging life, Little Miss Anxiety. However confident and chilled I may come across to you, I am actually a very nervous person and sometimes I find myself struggling to get through the simplest of tasks. As much as I try not to let little things affect me, it doesn't take a lot for me to get all worked up over something for almost no reason. 

An example of this would be Instagram. I am extremely obsessive over my Instagram feed to an almost unhealthy degree. My feed simply has to look right to me and if it doesn't, I cry and I delete photos and simply become a total mess. This happens about once a month. I have sat on the stairs before with my boyfriend holding my hand, trying to work out why I was so distressed over nothing. Does this type of situation sound familiar to any of you at all?

Another thing that can send me into a mass of nerves is ordering food in a restaurant or café, the idea of walking up to the counter and telling them what I would like whilst simultaneously worrying over whether I have the right change and remembering my table number brings me out in a cold sweat. I simply can't do it, and I'll find reasons to ask someone else to do it for me.

But on some days, I can do it. Only recently I went for lunch with one of my best friends and was able to stroll straight up to the counter. Except it wasn't quite that simple. I made sure my friend ordered first, I counted out my money three times and I was still absolutely terrified, but still I did it.

This is because I knew my friend was there right beside me, and that's what brings me to one of the most important ways of coping with anxiety - having a good support network. I am extremely lucky in the way of having a very close-knit family and whilst they might not always understand or even notice why I get nervous over such things, I know that they are always around if I need a hug when I'm feeling fluttery inside.

Another way I deal with my anxiety is blogging. Channelling my nervous energy into writing is a much healthier alternative than just sitting and allowing my thoughts to take over, although blogging can be sometimes counter-productive. I often start to worry about my stats and whether my posts are good enough, so before you use blogging as an outlet, be sure that those things won't make you feel worse.

Most of the time I have to physically snap myself out of my anxious state, and I do this by doing things I know that I love. I often sit myself down and slowly apply my makeup or try and work out how many different sounds I can hear which usually calms me down by forcing me to concentrate. Other times I will read a book or watch a TV show I love like The Big Bang Theory, Impractical Jokers or The Simpsons.



When I'm at my absolute can't-breathe, can't-think, cold-sweat, palm-rubbing (I rub my thumb across the palm of my opposite hand when I'm nervous) worst, the only think that can possibly calm me down is listening to a certain piece of music, which just so happens to be the theme to Top Gun. Weird, I know, but it works (and it also helps me to sleep.)

I wrestled with myself for a good while before publishing or even writing this post, wondering if I'd lose readers or even friends, but I'm came to realise that not writing about or refusing to accept something doesn't make it go away, it just builds up inside of you until there's no more room and you have to simply let it all out. This is me letting it out.


How do you deal with anxiety?
Do you have your own quirky song or film that makes you feel better?
Drop me a line in the comments, let's show anxiety who's boss.

9 comments on "My Anxiety."
  1. Thank you for being so honest, Alice! I can really identify with everything you wrote here because I struggle with some terrible anxiety. When I've had a really anxiety ridden day or week, nothing makes me feel better than one of my favorite old cheesy movies. Dirty Dancing is a good one. LOL Thanks again for sharing this. I'm going to share to twitter and go follow you on instagram!

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    1. Honesty is always the best policy when it comes to these things! Thank you so much for your lovely words and for sharing.
      Cheesy movies are my thaaannnng! My favourites are also 80's movies such as Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Splash, and Girls Just Wanna Have Fun!

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  2. I found this post really helpful and I'm greatful as I probably needed this advice the most recently. Well done and I can't wait to read your next post x

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    1. I'm so glad that this post was able to help you! I thought it would stop people from wanting to read my blog but it's done the opposite :) xx

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  3. I've always been such an anxious person but it has gotten so much worse these past few months after my accident. Doing makeup always helps me come out of my anxious "states" too but when I'm extremely bad, the only thing that has been able to help me recently is having my hair played with haha, weird I know. Loved this post (as usual, I loveeee your blog).

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    1. Oh bless you babe! I read about your accident on your blog and I really feel for you :(
      I also love having my hair played with, I can eaaaasily sit for an hour and have my boyfriend brush it.
      Thanks for the love xx

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  4. Well done for writing about this, Alice! I suffer with anxiety too and can relate to a lot of what you wrote, especially the thing about ordering food - well done for facing that situation, even if you had to count the change several times etc., do what you have to do to face it. The way I deal with things is to face them head on, because it proves to me that everything I'm worrying about isn't worth worrying about, and even if things do go wrong, I can deal with it, if that makes sense! A really great post, loved reading it, and again well done xx

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  5. I've been struggling with anxiety for a little while now, but I would definitely say I'm still new to the whole thing. I'm yet to work out what works to calm me down, and usually try just 'powering through it' and getting on with my life, but usually I find that makes it worse.

    I've heard different people saying that songs are a good thing for helping anxiety, so I think I'm going to make a playlist to help. Other than that, calming smells are a wonderful thing. I love sitting in a dimly lit room with a scented candle and find it a really calming place to be!

    Thanks for sharing your story, I'm still not brave enough to share anything on my blog but it helps when people like you can put their side across.

    Chloe x | Snug Corner

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  6. Great Post!! Love your bravery and appreciate it big time. I'm a blogger and suffer from anxiety disorder that turns to panic attacks some times and while reading your words I was reading my situation with a small difference that is I don't think I will be able to talk about it in my blog.. Hands down to you... You are awesome.... Answering your question; I first accept my condition, I get professional help & try to use my negative energy into something that's beneficial such as reading, blogging, exercising breathing, listening to music, go for a walk.. in short words, I distract my thoughts towards something positive... wish you all the best.

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Every single comment means so much to me, thanks for making me smile! :)

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